...what a way to start the work week...

im at work right now...cant seem to make my mind work...still wandering in space i guess...well...not really in the mood to write but i need an outlet...just feel so bad...my heart has been aching since yesterday...dont know why...will have it checked in the near future...

got into another arguement with my boyfriend...nagiging frequent na...which kinda scares me...just hope we dont get burned out...not feeling too good mainly because feeling ko i have to be thankful pa that he is who he is right now...i know it was not his intention to make "sumbat" sorry kung taglish but that was what i felt...if he was his old him daw he wouldnt react the way he did...lam mo yun feeling ko tuloy i needed to thank my lucky stars that he wasnt his old him...which i actually am thankful dahil siguro if ganon nga lagi na lang kami nagaaway...hay ewan ko ba...my mind is just in one big blur...just really feel bad each time we argue...pero ganon talaga...part naman talaga yun...just as long as di paulitulit yung reason kung bakit kami nagaaway...

hay thesis still incomplete....leche ayoko na talga!!!!if only i could get out of the program without paying...which is impossible!:p o well...no choice but to just keep working on it...hay....

guess that's all for now...ill do happy updates soon...enough whining and blabbing for now :p

...dropping by...

just dropping by...realized that i havent blogged since who knows when...hehehe been extemely busy with work and thesis...i missed out on updating this blog...and it sure has missed an entire chapter of my life!but there's no time for updates now....

i just felt like i needed to write....and release lang my emotions...i've been thinking almost the entire afternoon...kinda sad but its not the kind of sadness naman that affects me extremely....la lang maybe just one of those moments na im really just emotional about stuffs....

i've been brainstorming for the past few months on what to get for my boyfriend...i had so many options...one was to give him a surprise bday party...was planning on renting a resort type of place where he,his friends and i could stay overnight and just drink,sing,play billiards,eat and sing...i had around 20 people targetted and ive contacted the caterer already...i started planning out my budget so everything would be covered...but i had another alternative that was also appealing but it would just involve him and me...maganda kasi sana kung di ba the people close to him would also get to spend his bday with him although if tinuloy ko yung surprise i would have dinner with him sa mismong bday nya para kami lang...tapos the party would come saturday after his bday....buti na lang ndi yun yung ginawa ko para kasi when he found out parang di nya nagustuhan...la lang muntik pa kami mag-away talga to the point na he was considering to cancel our bacolod trip...e sobrng excited ako dun eh kasi id get to see where he grew up...hay...kakalungkot lang talga pag-nagaargue kami...so yun yung reason why i ended up blogging...needed an outlet eh tapos my heart was cringing din knna...e la naman ako makausap so i might as well just blog...hay...sakit talaga heart ko...di me makahinga ng ayos...anyways ayun...that's what happened...sana magustuhan nya yung gagawin ko...

so what else is there to say?nothing much..not really up to blogging...just needed an outlet...i promise to update soon though...just as soon as i get my f*ckng thesis over and done with...that would be the day!

til next blog!