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2006-11-23T06:16:00.001+08:00

I HATE IT!!!!

2006-11-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY JOB!I HATE THIS DAY!I JUST SIMPLY HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!things are not going my way for quite awhile and today doesn't look promising either...arrrrghhhh!!when will i get to see the light at the end of the tunnel???

slow dragging day

2006-07-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

it's a gloomy day for me today...a rather slow day...my neck aching...and my body crying out for sleep...so i resort to my therapy...BLOGGING! :) it's been such a long time since i last updated this blog...to think now here i am in Austin being "independent" well except for the paying bills part :p

today i thought of blogging mainly because i couldnt find anything productive to do...well i have tons of work piling up BUT i'm not in the mood to actually do anything worthwhile hahaha....okay okay i have no excuses specially my monthly thing is almost over so definitely no PMS excuse...hmmmmm...well i'm just a girl!!! :p hahaha im entitled to these moments aren't i??? :p

well despite the fact that the week is ending i decided to recharge myself and get a little dose of happy hormones!water aero or kickboxing here i come! :) need to start losing my weight and flabs too...i have to go home with at least a flat tummy! :p BORA her i come!!! :) hehehe oh and i intend to buy a cute two piece just so i'd motivate myself to keep working on my belly that just doesnt seem to want to go away!roses gave me a gym ball and a book abt pilates on the ball!! :) can't wait to try it out...actually considering to enroll myself to fitness first when i go back to manila...for one its closer to the office, another is they have those programs you can attend just like here...but id have to prepare my wallet for the monthly dues...but if my baby does sign up itll be a done deal...come to think of it im all giddy that we could actually go to the gym together...spot checker ko siya hahaha but then again he works nights so weekends lang siguro pwede :) we can also try jogging...we'll see i can just think of so many stuffs we could do together when i get back pero the main goal is magpakita muna siya ng magpakita sa bahay para naman magtiwala mom ko at payagan kami umalis it might take awhile though but ill be with him through it all :)

well i guess that will be all for now...will try to update again soon :)

day 1,2 and 3

2005-12-25T10:13:00.000+08:00

morning of December 12, i was on my way to the airport...i'll be spending xmas with my family in the UK...i intend to blog the days that i will be away from my beyo!:( well we both agreed to count the number of masses we would need to attend before i get back...so i already attended one sunday mass..there's two more to go!!!hehehe

i left the house at around 6am and my bro and i got to the airport at around 730.our flight was 1110 to hongkong...and then the flight to london would take off at 245pm.our flight was a little delayed for some reason so we got to hongkong just in time...we didnt have to wait that long...the long trip was rather boring and i hardly slept...maybe because i missed my beyo so much...i got to watch four brothers, charlie and the chocolate factory, 40 year old virgin and i got to maximize my iPOD nano coz if i wasnt watching i was trying to sleep while listening to my nano...thanks to my beyo! :D hehehe when we landed @ London we waited for 30 minutes before we got down since there was a congestion in the airport meaning we had to wait for another plane to leave before we could get off...immigration was fast but our baggage took quite awhile...it wasnt as cold as expected but it still was cold...my mom,dad and sister picked us up @ the airport and we went home after...we ate dinner and did some unpacking and our updates...i slept at around 2am already...oh and the bad thing about the trip was my monthly period came although im very thankful it didnt hurt that much in the plane...when i got home, that was when the pain started so thank God i still was comfortable at the plane...

i woke up at around 6am the next day...because of the pain caused by my monthly period...we went to stonehenge but it was closed so we just did a little picture taking and went back to tesco (grocery) to do some rush buying...hehehe we dropped by at marks and spencer and then went home....just enjoyed being with my family :) i also helped my mom prepare the soup and i also wrapped gifts :) hmmmm...after a long day i ended up napping before we attended mass which was at 12 midnight...hehehe the christmas mass here was rather different since they had carols and lots of reading before the actual mass started :)

got to talk to my bey twice yesterday...and we got to text every now and then so it was better than nothing! :) he greeted me when it was Christmas in the Philippines and he also called before i slept :) really sweet!!!grabe sobrang miss ko na talga siya!and its only been 2 days... :p

as for day three nothing much has happened yet...just ate breakfast and did some singing :p we will be attending a party later with some of the Filipinos here...so theres not much to say yet besides this is getting kinda long and i still need to help out my mom so ill try to blog again soon...ill be missing a few days though coz ill be leaving for Spain on the 26th and im not sure when we'll be back in UK....

galera + an early xmas gift

2005-12-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

went to puerto galera with my hs barkada last november 27-28...we took advantage of the long weekend but we just stayed there overnight...we met up at around 330am @ the jam liner terminal in kamias...there were 6 of us all in all but the other 2 went to galera a day earlier...hmmm....iwas pagod at may team building kasi sila...bale kung tutuusin 4 lang talga kami magkakabarkada pero dahil na lahat kami may +1 (significant other) naging 8 kami! :) hehehehe it was fun that i got to spend time with my friends...sobrang miss ko na sila eh...we stayed @ white beach tapos nagisland hopping kami....saya...and our significant others got to talk din kaya ok...i will post some pics when i find time to do so...

for the other update...i got a surprise early xmas gift last tuesday :) my bey gave me an iPOD nano for christmas!!! :) hehehehe sobrang saya ko!!!kasi gusto ko talga ng iPOD pero yun nga parang nagaalangan ako bumili kasi nga parang di praktikal hehehe :) sobrang sweet tapos nasurprise talga ko... :) nakakatuwa lang...kasi pati sister ko kinonchaba niya :) ayun lang naman...

as for my harry potter update...havent had time to read book 3 but im done with 1 and 2...one book na lang and pwede na kami manood ng movie!hehehe :p anyways...thats all for now...need to do some stuffs pa for our xmas party...

till next post! :)

what a day

2005-11-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

i think i mentioned before that i was finally graduating...yupps i finally completed my thesis!:) and today i had to go to intramuros to attend the baccalaureate mass and get my invitations for the ceremony that will be held on the 17th...just sad that neither of parents would be there but then again its really not a big deal...maybe when im done with my MBA and when i graduate with honors they'd be there...crossing my fingers though i do tend to be complacent so i start off well and end up slacking and there goes the award :p hahahaha

i was with 3 other officemates today and the 7-10 stint that was scheduled ended up 8-1...its a good thing we were on leave as an official business...in additional...jona and i had to go all the way to kamagong just to get our togas since we werent able to go to mapua to inform them of the size...it's a good thing that we didnt get lost hehehehe it's been a tiring day really...and it was so hot...plus the fact that we were required to attend the grad practices so we spent a lot of hours standing up in a really humid gym :p

currently reading harry potter book one...yupps it's book one alright...well mainly because i wasnt really into harry potter before but since my hubby and i will be watching the movie im trying to catch up on reading the previous books..actually i tried to read it before but i found it rather boring but it was probably because i started with book two whice i heard was the most boring among the series...i got to finish book 1 in approx less than a day...it was ok even if i watched the movie before i'll just have to see how long id take to read book 2....

next on my book list....harry potter book 2 :)

weekend update

2005-11-14T05:49:00.000+08:00

last saturday,i watched the legend of zorro with my hubby @ shangrila but before that we went to fashion freedom to check out the items there.it was rather disappointing but at least i still got to buy a shirt and he did too...we met up at around 830 and we proceeded to sucat afterwhich we ate at the shang and just roamed around since the start of the movie was still 2 hours away...

we went to the arcade and i lost big time, to almost all the games we played...i sucked big time!!! :p but it was okay we had fun...laugh trip sobra!!na-addict kami sobra dun sa barilbarilan na game...kakatawa kasi pareload kami ng pareload di pa namin ginawang buo...hehehe pero sobrang saya mukha nga may kakareerin nanman kami nito eh :p

back to the movie, it was okay, it had some funny parts...im not much of a movie critic...it was an okay movie for me light and not too dragging :) the character of the kid was cute...ang sutil kasi eh!after the movie we headed to a gaming store and we played counter but we ended up getting a headache...been awhile since we both played the game...so he ended up teaching me starcraft...it was similar to battle realms and the generals which is why i ended up liking it :) we played two games but i still panic everytime my base gets attacked...hehehe we headed home after i dropped by the office, we didnt have dinner anymore since both of us were still full...my baby didn't sleep that day so we went home earlier than the usual :)

food trip din sobra, we had sinigang and a tbone for lunch..ate fic after that...ate crab something and squid ball...

sunday naman,he went to my place,and we just played starcraft and csi :) hehehe talk about computer game addicts :p i played with gimli and gamgee before he arrived and he got to see the puppy that don't look much of puppies anymore :p so i guess that's about it for now...i'll be updating again whenever i get the chance to :)

just a boring day

2005-11-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

can a person actually be tired of doing nothing?i didnt do much today at work but i feel so down for some reason...i dont know...kinda sad coz mel (one of the expats @ our office) is leaving on the 15th...she'll be going back to Austin after staying here for 3 months...well she was one of the people who made me feel welcome and someone i get to talk to every now and then...i gave her a few tagalog lessons and actually taught her, her favorite tagalog word.."talaga" hehehe and for her last tagalog lesson from me...i taught her paalam but she said she preferred saying see you...so she's now trying to memorize the phrase i gave her...before i left the office i went by her office and she gave me a really big hug :) teary-eyed she said the phrase i taught her...i will surely miss her!i really hate goodbyes...but then again it really is a part of life and im just glad that our paths crossed even for a short time :)

i also took a video of a few officemates for my friends audio visual presentation wedding...it was fun and i guess i just enjoyed seeing them think of something to say...i'll be doing the part 2 tom and after that jeanette and i will edit everything... :)

had dinner with my bf @ shang before going home...ate quite a lot...on the side though i was looking for a costume for our christmas party...i was thinking of going as pocahontas!hahaha wish i was slimmer though!!!!i'll just have to see what ill end up to be... :p

i guess thats all for now...

thanks to friendster

2005-10-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

i forgot to mention in my previous post how hilarious and embarassing it was when friendster released their latest feature...yupps the one when you get to view qho viewed and looked at your profile...when i heard about this from a really good friend of mine ceejay, i totally freaked out...well for one because the exes of my bf would find out i viewed their profiles and would know that i am insecure to some extent...hahaha but later on i found it hilarious that a lot of people reacted the same way...and upon viewing those who viewed me it wasnt that bad since one of his exes did view me hahaha talk about insecurity!:p and being an ex, i was also viewed by a current girlfriend of someone...hahaha so all's well i mean there's really not much i can do about it :)

when my bf got into the office i asked him to check his account in front of me and i was teasing him because his ex viewed his profile...hahaha so later on it all backfired coz when we checked my account my ex also viewed me...hehehe laugh trip talga kasi nagkabukuhan na...

that's it for this rather short post i just had to make sure i didnt miss out on sharing my reaction regarding this matter :p

..another nonsense post...

2005-10-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

i am currently reading a book by bo sanchez,thanks to ate cecille for lending me her book :) due to the completion of my thesis, i now have time to read other books...i actually miss reading john grisham books or self-help books...its been awhile since i last finished a book :) going back to the book i'm currently reading, it's mostly religious and i'm learning a lot :) the book is more of a compilation of articles which was rather nice since you get a lot from a few pages (if i can remember correctly a max of 3 pages for an article) i really am enjoying the book and maybe in one of my posts id be sharing a thing or two that i got from the book :)

a little off the topic, now that i have more time i do intend to go back to the gym...yupps i need to lose weight and inches on my tummy!since im on the pm shift i might go swimming and do a little cardio @ the gym before going to work...that should help me shed off a little fat! :p need to go back on my half rice diet!!!:(

on a happier note,a friend of mine is in love... :) im happy for her...hehehe no mentioning of names coz i promised that i wouldnt tell...im just so happy that she found someone :) i pray that things work out for them :)

hmmm...what else is there to say?i accompanied my bf to look for an apartment...and i think we found the one he's looking for...although he still needs to weigh things i think its a pretty much done deal...well i mean decision wise i think he really wants to move there... :) i even compiled a little criteria checklist to make things easier for him...kaya lang pinagtawanan niya...pinaghirapan ko pa man din yun...although he did appreciate it...sabi niya yun eh :)

i'm actually chatting with him right now...while im writing this post...he's telling me that its good that i get to have more time now to do what i want coz back then during my thesis day either i was crying due to frustration or busy figuring out how the heck to get things done :)

so i guess that's all for this post...im sure the next one won't be too far off :) til next time!

..finally...

2005-10-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

finally!!!my thesis days are over...i defended last Monday...though there were lots of questions i was just lucky that my adviser was able to save me each time i couldnt answer the question...galing talga!thanks boss kiko!i owe him so much dahil sobrang ginulo ko sya for the past few months!!!:) sir kiko, ur d best!!hehehe

i'm just so thankful that it's over now and my bond is already starting to tick :) hehehe 2 more years!!!i should probably post a countdown here in my blog...hahahaha now i have more time to blog and more time to do the things i enjoy doing...like go back to the gym and lose all the weight i gained...another is go back to playing badminton...

there's a few things i want to do...

go to cribbs and take care of the babies
join mawf and be active
go back to being active in serving Days with the Lord
go to Sta Clara and thank the nuns for praying for me
offer a thanksgiving mass for the completion of my thesis
treat my hs barkada for dinner
have coffee with my college friends
teach kids i just dont know where

sorry if my mind doesnt have a clear trail...im just so disoriented for some reason...my bf spent his bday yesterday and i prepared a 4 day surprise for him...not all of the plans turned out as i planned it but things still went well...i mean i do think he liked it :) yesterday, i bought a cake and 11 short stemmed roses...i asked his friends to gather so we could surprise him...he almost cried :) after that we took a cruise at manila bay and we enjoyed the city lights and finally we had dinner at le bellevue, diamond hotel...the place was so nice it was overlooking manila bay...before the night ended i gave him the 12th rose...a long stemmed, old rose colored rose :) but that was just for his bday...the previous days i might narrate in a different post...kinda sleepy already...so i guess this will be it for now...til next blog! :)

quote to share

2005-09-29T20:43:00.000+08:00

"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; forgive them anyway.If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway.If you are successful, you will win some false friends and true enemies; succeed anyway.If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; be honest and frank anyway.What you spend years to build , someone could destroy; build anyway.If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway.The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyway.Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; give your best anyway.You see in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it never was between you and them anyway." Mother Theresa

just a little quote that my brother asked me to look for...he heard this during a homily at mass and was so touched by it that he asked me to look for it and send it to him...so since i found this quote really nice i might as well post it... :) it is true you really can't have it all and that you can't please everybody but at the end of it all..it really is just between you and God...and that's what matters the most...

guess i would suggest that all of us should take a little time to reflect and look back and see how we have lived our lives....are we proud of whom we have become?or did we think too much of what the others thought instead of what HE would think?

just that quote for this post :)

...sweet things...

2005-09-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

it's probably when he gives me a rose when his gut feel tells him there's something wrong even if i dont admit it...or it could be the way he stares at me and tell me he loves me...or even when he massages me even if he's already tired and isn't feeling too good...when he cooks and brings me food every now and then...when he baby talks with me(malaking effort yan for guys)...when he holds my hand and squeezes it tight whenever i feel like the whole world is crumbling down on me...when he prays with me out loud whenever we get the chance to...when he accompanies me home even if he hasn't slept...when he foregoes sleeping on weekends just so he could spend time with me...when he leaves voice messages for me...when he emails me just to say he loves me...when he hugs me tight and kisses my forehead...when he drops whatever it is he's doing just so he could be there for me...when he carries my stuff for me...when he ties my shoe laces when it gets untied...when he goes with me even if he's not comfortable just so he could spend time with me...when he makes me taste his food even before he gets to taste it...when he carries my bag for me...when he opens the door for me..when he takes the danger side while crossing and walking sa streets...when he views my friendster account almost everday even if there are no changes...there's just so many other sweet things that he does and one post simply isnt enough for me to state everything....that's just the small stuffs that he's done...the major sweet stuffs have yet to be shared and posted :p so until here muna...til next time!

frustrated + lost + disappointed = a very fu#ked up me

2005-09-24T02:35:00.000+08:00

yupps...im very fu*ked up right now...with so much frustration and so much disappointment words cannot even give anyone a gist of what i am feeling...if only i could just give up...if only i could just run away i would...but i know i shouldnt and i know i can do better than that...

its just hard knowing that almost everyone around you is pressuring you and pushing you when you yourself know that you've already done so much pushing...im not even sure if there's more to push...i dont want to whine and just complain but i really need an outlet...something that would just absorb what i have to say...and so my very reliable blog has come to the rescue...

oh well i guess i've cried everything out already...im just sorry for reacting this way and not handling things in a better way...i guess thats all for now...the emotions has died down but maybe they're still bottled up inside me waiting for the next explosion...

til next therapy session!

..and the cramps never fail...

2005-09-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

and so the monthly cramps struck again...which is why i am at home tied to the bed figuring out how i can finish the tons of things i have to do...great timing!!!but hey there's not much i can do so might as well stop whining and deal with it...

i was supposed to go to work but then on my way i knew i wouldnt last that long so i decided to just go back home and take a rest...too bad coz i was looking forward to another scrumptuous meal with my snubby :) last night he brought me dinner since i wasn't feeling too good...he bought 4 bbq's and 2 liempo's from grill queen and he also cooked rice for us :) really sweet since he woke up 4hrs earlier just so he could eat dinner with me...thanks bey! :)

i'm so excited with my plans for his birthday, i just hope all things would fall into place...kinda nervous though that things might not go as planned....hmmm...enough discussion on this he might all of sudden visit my blog and spoil all the surprise in store for his big day...

the banquet we had to attend last week turned out ok...thanks to the help of my college best bud amy for helping me and my bey find a dress for me to wear...although our shopping adventure wasn't successful i still am thankful that she took some time out just to help me pick out something... :) i almost missed the banquet since i couldn't find any dress and my original plan didnt work out due to some factors which id rather not talk about anymore...im just glad that things turned out ok...

my high school friend who got married early this year is now pregnant and the entire barkada is just so excited!!! :) she'll be going home for Christmas so if im lucky enough i could get to see her that is if ill still be around during that time...my bro and i will be spending Christmas with the rest of the fam @ UK...hay first christmas with my bey and we'll be oceans apart :( but then again i do miss my family i just wish they were the ones who'd go home instead of us having to go there...

hmmm.....actually there's a lot more i can write about since i havent done much updating for the past mondths!!!but i'm really not in the mood for that yet...hehehe i'll be going to bacolod mid October, in time for the Maskara festival... :) another first for me...i did forget to write about the Bohol trip which was another first for me and my hubby :) i will post pictures just as soon as i find the time to do so...i do intend to go back to the gym and do a low carb diet since my officemate's wedding is just a few months off...

i guess that's all for now...i better get back to rest or else i might end up vomiting all over the place...til next post!!! :)

..just when u thought you had everything figured out...

2005-08-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

sometimes life has its way of showing that it sucks big time...although it really is a given fact that life isnt supposed to be easy...its just annoying that there are moments wherein life really rubs it in...as they say when it rains it pours...then again i could just be overacting...

didnt really have a good day except that i got to sleep the entire afternoon with my snubby...since i was in a bad mood i had to sleep off the bad feeling and true enough i slept soundly cuddling beside my snubby :) i dont even remember how i ended up sleeping...hehehe although i get a sudden lapse of consciousness when my baby snores hehehehe kinda adoring really because he'll suddenly just snap out of it... :) it's great to just be able to sleep beside someone and just simply cuddle...and each time you move he'd always find his way to keep you in your arms... :)

so i guess that's the highlight of my day! :) and it was enough to get all the wrong stuffs that happened during the day seem like yesterday!:) thanks bey! :) the weather isnt helping either...i hate it when it rains...it feels so gloomy..its just i dont know not my kind of thing i guess...

currently watching somethings gotta give...a really cute movie...hmmm...what else is there to blog about?!nothing much going on really except that i'm looking forward to my first ever bora trip...i just hope my snubby gets his leave approved...his bday is nearing...got plans already i just hope things do push through... :) im extremely excited!!!hehehe

thats all for now...til next blog!

...help me...

2005-08-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

help me go through the rest of the night...help me understand that i can only do so much...help me accept that i cant control everything and that i should just let things be...help me please because i can only do so much...help me take away this feeling i cant even explain...just help me...that's all i ask...

back to blog therapy...just to release and air out sentiments that are kept deep inside...not really deep inside but i guess emotions that were already said but still hasnt gone away...

that will be all for now...nothing much to say...got wet kanna...was caught by the rain...took the wrong tricycle back to the office and ended up walking in the rain...not too much drenched but wet enough to look and feel harassed...plus a bf that would greet you with a very warm welcome...a very irritated and cold face...but we're ok now...we talked abt it already...all's well i hope...

not really in the writing mood...mind cluttered...body tired...but cant sleep...so that explains the rather misguided post...ill end it here na...til next blog

...what a way to start the work week...

2005-07-26T09:06:00.000+08:00

im at work right now...cant seem to make my mind work...still wandering in space i guess...well...not really in the mood to write but i need an outlet...just feel so bad...my heart has been aching since yesterday...dont know why...will have it checked in the near future...

got into another arguement with my boyfriend...nagiging frequent na...which kinda scares me...just hope we dont get burned out...not feeling too good mainly because feeling ko i have to be thankful pa that he is who he is right now...i know it was not his intention to make "sumbat" sorry kung taglish but that was what i felt...if he was his old him daw he wouldnt react the way he did...lam mo yun feeling ko tuloy i needed to thank my lucky stars that he wasnt his old him...which i actually am thankful dahil siguro if ganon nga lagi na lang kami nagaaway...hay ewan ko ba...my mind is just in one big blur...just really feel bad each time we argue...pero ganon talaga...part naman talaga yun...just as long as di paulitulit yung reason kung bakit kami nagaaway...

hay thesis still incomplete....leche ayoko na talga!!!!if only i could get out of the program without paying...which is impossible!:p o well...no choice but to just keep working on it...hay....

guess that's all for now...ill do happy updates soon...enough whining and blabbing for now :p

...dropping by...

2005-07-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

just dropping by...realized that i havent blogged since who knows when...hehehe been extemely busy with work and thesis...i missed out on updating this blog...and it sure has missed an entire chapter of my life!but there's no time for updates now....

i just felt like i needed to write....and release lang my emotions...i've been thinking almost the entire afternoon...kinda sad but its not the kind of sadness naman that affects me extremely....la lang maybe just one of those moments na im really just emotional about stuffs....

i've been brainstorming for the past few months on what to get for my boyfriend...i had so many options...one was to give him a surprise bday party...was planning on renting a resort type of place where he,his friends and i could stay overnight and just drink,sing,play billiards,eat and sing...i had around 20 people targetted and ive contacted the caterer already...i started planning out my budget so everything would be covered...but i had another alternative that was also appealing but it would just involve him and me...maganda kasi sana kung di ba the people close to him would also get to spend his bday with him although if tinuloy ko yung surprise i would have dinner with him sa mismong bday nya para kami lang...tapos the party would come saturday after his bday....buti na lang ndi yun yung ginawa ko para kasi when he found out parang di nya nagustuhan...la lang muntik pa kami mag-away talga to the point na he was considering to cancel our bacolod trip...e sobrng excited ako dun eh kasi id get to see where he grew up...hay...kakalungkot lang talga pag-nagaargue kami...so yun yung reason why i ended up blogging...needed an outlet eh tapos my heart was cringing din knna...e la naman ako makausap so i might as well just blog...hay...sakit talaga heart ko...di me makahinga ng ayos...anyways ayun...that's what happened...sana magustuhan nya yung gagawin ko...

so what else is there to say?nothing much..not really up to blogging...just needed an outlet...i promise to update soon though...just as soon as i get my f*ckng thesis over and done with...that would be the day!

til next blog!

no updates :)

2005-02-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

no updates!just realized my last post was january...and it's already mid feb...i promise i will update as soon as my thesis is completed...for now just please pray for me...

every little girl have always dreamed about being a princess (thanks to all the fairy tales that we read)...although i may not speak for everyone this is true for me...i remember thinking of how my prince charming would look like and imagine how my fairy tale happy ending w...now that i am older...i still dream about being a princess hahaha kidding!now that i am older i realized that each fairy tale in your life doesnt necessarily have a happy ending and that the one true love (fairy tale) would never have to end...coz love isnt supposed to end :)

to cut the long introduction...i took a quiz hehehe and i just want to share that i ended up to be my favorite disney princess :) ARIEL :)

You Are Ariel!

Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

so that will be all for now..back to work! :)

nervous and overwhelmed

2005-01-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

Height: 5'5 1/2

Weight: 122lbs

yes i have once again gained weight over the holidays...i mean how could i not?!i did nothing but eat and sleep during the break...hehehe so much for trying to go on a diet for cia's wedding!2 weeks left til i attend the wedding of my hs friend...

so what else is there left to update...hmmmm...the year has started and my thesis and work welcomes me with open arms!hehehe i have intended to start on my thesis for the past weeks but i havent really been able to sit down and get started on it...although i have scheduled an interview already so that i could get my thoughts organized...

i will be attending a training for two days at mapua and will be working on regular hours...(YIPEE!!!) hehehe but i'm pretty much sure that work will be waiting for me as soon as i get back...i'm now assigned to help out my team mate for the test stuffs...so i need to catch up on the topics since admittedly i know that i'm behind...that's the reason why my title is such...I really am nervous in taking up this new task since this is all new to me...but i know that as long i give it a shot and give it my all it'll be something ill be proud of in the end...

As closing i'd like to end it with a prayer...

Dear Kuya Jess,

I ask for Your guidance, that I may be able to face all the challenges that come my way. I know that there is nothing that You and I can't handle so please grab my hand and lead me to the right path...Please give me strength that I may be able to accomplish all that is needed within the specified time...

I love you...

Vacation mode @ work

2004-12-23T20:44:00.000+08:00

i'm already in vacation mode...actually i've been in vacation mode since the week started...it's only 2 days before Christmas and the weather is getting rather cold...i'm supposed to be working right now but here i am blogging...

i forgot to include in my update that my sister won 1st place in her recital and she gets an iPOD as her prize and Christmas gift....sigh...hehehe then again when i think of it i dont really need an iPOD...hahaha SURE SURE...not a need but most likely a want hehehe can't believe i turned out to be a techie geek too hehehehe

the past few days were basically composed of playing scrabble online with 2 of my team mates...attending meetings and being idle...hehehe i can't believe i waste that much time instead of actually starting on my thesis... :( i got to review my IPF with my boss and it went okay...maybe i'm just overwhelmed or something but i felt kinda down afterwards...maybe because i cant seem to feel fulfilled...i honestly dont know...but i feel so lost in this techie world...something i never was equipped for in the first place...im struggling but i hope after being here for 8 months...id finally get to catch up...i just feel so useless because my other team mates are so good and i feel like im just nobody :( sigh there goes another sentimental outburst...

to a lighter topic...i had a great morning today...i already opened a really special gift and i surely loved it!!!! :) to prove that i loved it below are some pictures i took...do excuse the way i look...hehehe i literally just woke up... :)

funshine bear with friend bear

love-a-lot and tender heart bear

bedtime bear and wish bear

all the bears with ME!!! :)

i love the carebears ever since i can remember!and yes as childish as it sounds im still a fanatic of carebears...really am disappointed that kids nowadays didnt get to see carebears... :( he gave my 6 carebears!! :) and i loved it so much!!! :)

an hour more and i'll be free!!!i can go home!!! :) yipee!can't wait!!! :) by the way, some people gave me gifts awhile ago and i was really caught by surprise...i mean i didnt expect those people to give me gifts so THANKS so much :)

i guess that will be all for now...til next update and merry merry christmas to everyone :) oh by the way, the politically correct way of greeting would be happy holidays...so happy holidays to everyone :)

updates!!!

2004-12-20T15:09:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since i last posted.been pretty busy for the past weeks...finally the increment is about to end and the demo's are over...BUT and that's a big but...i have my thesis that i should start and changes on my project to work on...hmmm...so it's really not all over...then again i dont think things regarding work would ever end....
last weekend, i got to meet up with my high school barkada :) just a little get together at this place called ciudad christia :) it was okay aside from the restroom...which could add a little more privacy...tama bang walang divider ang mga shower?!hehehe how the heck can they expect people to take a bath there?!so i ended up shampooing my hair and soaping with my bathing suit on...and i did a round 2 washing up as soon as i got home! :) hehehe!my friends and i were so supposed to meet at 7am which turned out to be 12:30 pm to some and 1:30 to some...really frustrating but then again that's how my friends really are...so the lesson learned was that we should just set the time at a later time...evening to be specific... :D hehehe
cant really think of anything else to say right now....still busy thinking of what to write in my IPF :p hehehe so i guess that's about it for now...
later... :)

holiday @ work

2004-11-29T07:08:00.000+08:00

it's a holiday today but guess what?!i'm at work!i need to get a whole lot ofthings done for a coming demo and i have a lot of guts to even blog right now...to think i stated that i would focus more when at work?!hahaha but i will focusright after posting this blog...it just sucks knowing that ALMOST everyone is ona holiday and i'm here at work trying to make this freaking thing work...to thinkit really was working up until i upgraded my OS!grrrr.....talk about the downsideof technology!!since there's not much i can do but complain i guess i'd rather acceptit as fact rather than waste my time wallowing in self pity...hehehe

i got to reformat my laptop yesterday at last!!! :) after so many months of putting it offto another time i finally went through the tedious task just so i have my laptop ready formy thesis!hehehe yupps...another load is yet to be started...

changing the topic to a much lighter one...we had no cable the entire weekend and it sucks big time!hehehe that's why boredom got me into reformatting my laptop!another thing is that last night til i got to the office this morning i had no signal..thanks to GLOBE...talk about being lucky!I'm thinking of buying a prepaid from SUN and avail of the 24/7 promo that they're having...just not quite sure if their network would reach our house...my friend who lives nearby doesn't have a signal at her place but im still willing to test my luck...hehehe it may spare me from exceeding my bill limit with my globe plan!

i've done my christmas list already! :) and i'll start shopping anytime soon that is if i will have a free time...our company christmas party is nearing (Dec 4!) and i still have no 70's costume!hmmm....i honestly have no idea what i should wear!!

hmmm...i just noticed i've already taken up so much time blogging so i guess that will be all for now...need to startworking... :) i should be able to cross out a lot of things in my to-do list today otherwise i'll be doomed to working overtime for the entire week!hehehe

...my personal goals...

2004-11-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

the other day i was absent from work because i had my monthly visitor and i was bed ridden for almost the entire day...after sleeping off half of the day due to intense pain i ended up cleaning my drawers...and while doing that i ended up listing a few things that i want changed about me...i know it would take awhile but im sure by reaching such goals as shallow as it may be...i know i'd turn out to be a better person...

1. I have to lose weight...at least trim down the fats i got in my tummy a.k.a "bilbil" this would mean spending time at the gym or doing taebo at home and watching the foods i eat
2. I have to set an everyday routine thus making me "organized" maybe i could start off with the littlest things such as making sure that i just don't stash everything in my bag
3. I want to get a perfect attendance at work meaning no more lates for me...
4. I want to be organized with what i should do at work and ensure that i get most of my to do's in short i should focus more when at work
5. I should get my closet cleaned as well as my room
6. I should learn something new each day....even as simple as a vocabulary word :)
7. I should watch my budget so that I could save more
8. Learn how to fix myself (make up) or be more "kikay" in such a context that i won't be mistaken as a guy hahaha

and so the list goes on but for now that will be what i'm going to focus on... my to do's will be up for my next entry :)

that's all for now til next time :)

a public blog

2004-11-27T13:11:00.000+08:00

so okay i am now launching a public blog!hehehe :) although admittedly i hardly keep my "secret" blog up to date i have some nerve to create a new one...so do just bear with me if after long months have passed and i still have no update ;p

currently my life equates to work + school + home...talk about having fun!!hehehe work has been pretty demanding considering the demo and deadlines i have to meet...i really don't have much time to do the stuffs i really want to do like going to the gym, playing badminton, swimming and a whole lot more!hehehe i've been working on the morning shift for nearly 4 months now and my system is definetely asking me for sleep...its hard for someone like me to stay on a morning shift when i'm really a night person...its hard for me to find sleep during the early night thus resulting to a zombie me every morning....hehehehe

i attended a wedding last Thursday, November 25. The ceremony took place at the Shrine near Roxas blvd...the exact place where i want to get married in the future...the place creates an atmosphere appropriate for such a special occasion...the place is somewhat isolated which makes the entire event serene and peaceful...with the sunset starting it can surely sweep anyone from their feet...the Manila Bay nearby, the wind blowing gently and above all two people very much in love in front of the altar will just leave everyone in awe...i witnessed a very special moment for two of my dear friends and i was just there left speechless and all mushy and sentimental...makes me wonder how my very own wedding would turn out to be....hmmm....something i'd like to day dream about...i thought of having a beach wedding but then again my religion as i know it does not allow such weddings...so i ended up wanting to get married where the sunset would be seen or a church nearby a beach...saw the picture below on one of the blogs that i viewed and the thought that someone actually got married there just makes me go awwwww....hehehe

but since my wedding is still far from happening i guess all these thoughts should be put on hold for now...

that same day the building where i'm working at had a fire drill and i was very much relieved that i escaped the torment of going down 47 floors...my officemates ended up complaining the very next day...

so i guess that's all the updates for now...til next blog!! :)