frustrated + lost + disappointed = a very fu#ked up me

yupps...im very fu*ked up right now...with so much frustration and so much disappointment words cannot even give anyone a gist of what i am feeling...if only i could just give up...if only i could just run away i would...but i know i shouldnt and i know i can do better than that...

its just hard knowing that almost everyone around you is pressuring you and pushing you when you yourself know that you've already done so much pushing...im not even sure if there's more to push...i dont want to whine and just complain but i really need an outlet...something that would just absorb what i have to say...and so my very reliable blog has come to the rescue...

oh well i guess i've cried everything out already...im just sorry for reacting this way and not handling things in a better way...i guess thats all for now...the emotions has died down but maybe they're still bottled up inside me waiting for the next explosion...

til next therapy session!